Numinous and Blessed Sojourn

Numinous (Latin) - 1. an experience that makes you fearful, fascinated, awed yet attracted 2. the powerful, personal feeling of being overwhelmed and inspired.




As I am constructing this, I twelve hours away from my first intercontinental flight. I am excited but I also feel scared of leaving the Philippines alone. You see, the farthest that I've been away from home was when we went to Singapore and Malaysia and that was only for five days and the only time that I was able to travel alone was a day in Puerto Princesa, Palawan. Even if I've always wanted to "explore the world," the thought that I am finally having the chance to live alone in a foreign country still intimidates me.


If there's one thing that I should excel at this point is my ability to continue replacing the fear of the unknown wih the excitement for the greater things that are yet to come. Paka-positive lang!!!

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When this gets posted, I am in the US already. SUPPOSEDLY, I have met new people have embraced these new people, together with the new challenges and new life chapter that I have started to embark. It's not like I'll be staying for long though, in fact, I'll only be staying for less than 100 days. HAHAHA. So, ang arte ko lang ba? Basta, I should learn how to be comfortable in the uncomfortable!!! The next two months will all be about changing for the better and appreciating myself more. 

For this journey, I am claiming that: 

1. I have the opportunity to see a lot of places and experience a lot of things. I am staying in the west part but I hope that I can get as far as New York.

2. I can budget my money wisely. WISELY. WISELY. WISELY. 

3. I can do everything... everything through Christ Who strengthens me. If homesickness or loneliness kicks in, I only have to remember that I'm still in the first phase of "the" plan so I should be courageous. HAHA. 


Woooo thankful for the opportunity talaga, this is only the first of the many times that I'll experience living abroad. The beginning definitely didn't go as planned pero I'm claiming that the next days will all be in my favor. I know my experiences will be awesome. I know the sacrifices will all be worth it! Pero while I'm away, I'll continue praying for the safety of those I left in the Philippines. Hihi. Don't miss me too much, Pinas! Uuwi naman ako!




I've bought an e-copy of Donald Miller's book, Through Painted Deserts; Light, God, and the Beauty on the Open Road. Hehe. Sabi ko kasi before, should I find myself in a long haul flight, I'll read it while in the plane. HEHEHEHE! AKALAIN NATIN 'YON!!! TAPOS NAAAAAAAAAA. SANA NABASA KO UNG BUONG BOOK. HAHA


And so my prayer is that your story will have involved some leaving and some coming home, some summer and some winter, some roses blooming out like children in a play. My hope is your story will be about changing, about getting something beautiful born inside of you about learning to love a woman or a man, about learning to love a child, about moving yourself around water, around mountains, around friends, about learning to love others more than we love ourselves, about learning oneness as a way of understanding God. We get one story, you and I, and one story alone. God has established the elements, the setting and the climax and the resolution. It would be a crime not to venture out, wouldn't it?

It might be time for you to go. It might be time to change, to shine out.

I want to repeat one word for you:
Leave.

Roll the word around on your tongue for a bit. It is a beautiful word, isn't it? So strong and forceful, the way you have always wanted to be. And you will not be alone. You have never been alone. Don't worry. Everything will still be here when you get back. It is you who will have changed.



This is not the trip I was referring to when I posted my December So Brave in 2014 but I was given a more exciting trip kaya keri! At dun sa place na isa, I'll go there din naman before the year ends. Hehe.




PS  If you're from the US or have been in the US, do you have any tips and suggestions for me? Responses will be very very very very much appreciated. 


I'll update this blog as of often as I can to document my whole trip. I'll hope that you'll continue to be here with me as well. 



Tintin So Brave!!!!!!!
Tintin So Blessed!!!!!!! HAHA. EDI WOW. 



May God bless us more in our journeys. :)

One of my life's experience where it is more or Him and less of me, surprise me po!:)


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