Paano kung wala ka namang pakialam noong una tapos darating ang pagkakataon na maiisip mong 'yon na nga 'yung naka-tadhana sa'yo? Kasi nga nandyan eh, kasi kahit papano pinaghirapan mong mapapa-sa'yo 'yun.
Dati naniwala akong kapag andyan na 'yung "tadhana" mo, 'yun na 'yun. Dahil andyan na, hindi mo na kailangang mag-effort para mapanatili 'yang andyan. Hindi pala. Mali pala. Ang dapat palang isipin, kung andyan na 'yung sa tingin mong "tadhana" mo, ipaglaban mo hanggang sa dulo. Alam mo kung bakit? Lahat ng bagay kahit inakala mong hindi mawawala, kahit iniisip mong hindi masisira... kapag binalewala mo, darating ang panahon na mawawala 'yon o di kaya'y masisira. At alam mo kung anong mas masakit dun kapag na-realize mo na? Hawak mo na e, pinabayaan mo lang. Sa dinami-rami ng nagsabi, hindi pa rin matutunan na... "Mapapahalagahan mo lang ang isang bagay kapag wala na ito sa'yo." Oo nga. Oo nga. 잘 못 했어요. 정말 잘 못 했어요...
When we were younger, fairy tales made us believe that happy endings exist. But you know what? There's no such thing as a happy "ending" 'cause the story doesn't end. Unless, of course, you decide that it'd be the end by ending your life as well which I am not suggesting, okay? In reality, there may be moments of great ecstasy on some closures but it's only a chapter you're closing not the whole story. Sa totoong buhay, endings are always beginnings. And for the next chapter to end happily too? You'd have to take care of those things dear to you. It's a continuous cycle: start, fight and end it well.
But what if... what if you messed up big time and lose the things/persons you initially thought were fated for you?
Hmmm... the only way is to accept the guilt. It's okay to mess up then embrace the uncertainty of the new life you may be facing. Just take responsibility and look for another "tadhana" which you'll be doing your best, your very best to protect. And when that time comes that your new "tadhana" present itself to you, don't ever think that you're unworthy. Pantay lang kayo no matter how great you think it/he/she is.
But of course, it's always always always always easier said than done.